Sometimes, no matter how hard we try, we end up killing ourselves. Our greed takes over. Our arrogance. Our pride. Our malice. The evil. There isn't just one, there are many. They are souls that attach themselves to the hearts of the vulnerable. The vulnerable fall victim to the prey. Victims of a corrupt society. Victims to evil. The evil take them hostage, then slowly devour them. Cell by molecular cell, the evil consumes the blood and skin of the victim.
First it finds an open wound, anywhere on the body.. it begins picking at the wound, digging a deeper hole. It breaches the body, then drifts along the bloodline. From wherever it is, it ascends or descends to the heart. It sticks a fang into the most vulnerable part of the heart, climbs through the hole, then patches it up. After patching up the hole in the heart, the Evil then clots some blood up to form a nest. The Evil is asexual, thus it splits itself into 3 parts. When separated from itself, it's form is shrunk and shriveled, so it will lie in the "nest" for 10 years, and in some rare cases only 1 year. All the while, it's mere presence is enough to poison the heart.
When it awakes from it's slumber, it is 3 individual pieces of Evil, and yet 1 all the same. One might wonder why it splits in 3.. the answer is simple: to victimize and hijack the body, soul, and most importantly the spirit. In doing this, the evil can have free reign over an individual. After it is finished consuming the individual, it has finally spread to the entirety of each body - physically, mentally, and spiritually. This is the level of possession, in which the Evil has gained full control, and the individual has lost all chance of ever returning to his or her normally kind and gentle self. The person has become seduced by anger, flirted with hatred, and filled with malice.
The odour which comes off of the individual is unpleasant to the naked nostril, and only certain people can tolerate such a stench. These people are called "those who love". They love people unconditionally, without any stipulations. They are filled with a certain joy that they cannot even describe. They spread this love to those who have fallen prey to the Evil, and in turn are able to slowly consume the Evil, then vomiting the Evil into it's own nihilism, and thus mending the wounds which plagued the individual. The individual will then have the opportunity to eat and drink of the love which had consumed their Evil, or remain stagnant at their own discretion, able to fall prey to another form of Evil once again.
How does the Evil choose who it will take hostage? By watching us closely.. very closely.. with nocturnal eyes, with eyes that see clearly in the day.. with eyes that can see at any rate of speed, through the deepest fog, and pierce their way through the unknown.. so watch closely, very closely.. the Evil could be very near to breaching your veins.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Music, Videos, Studying and Downtime..
With 3 weeks left of Winter Quarter to go, I will finally have some downtime soon enough. I have certainly needed it. I've been exhausted since my second year has taken place in the Fall. It has been much harder this year than last. Then again, I say the same thing every quarter - that it's harder than the last. Then when it's all said and done, I end up saying it was easier. Either way, I'm stressed, fatigued, have had many-a-sleepless nights, and am ready for spring break. Trouble is, it's only a 1 week break before Spring Quarter 2011 begins.. but hey, it's a break. I just gotta plow through, study as hard as I can the remaining weeks, and it'll be done before I know it.
Thankfully, the final for my music theory should be fairly easy - and fun. The grading will be based on hard work and creative effort. We'll be taking an mp3, running it through the notation software Sibelius and arranging strings and/or whatever else we so choose (horns, brass, etc etc).
For the ProTools final, I've chosen to do the FMOD capstone project. FMOD is a program which cues themes in videogames, so I'll compose an orchestrated tune on ProTools, run the music on FMOD, and hopefully it will work in some form or another.
For the Audio Production final, it's probably something along the lines of a test, which I've actually been quite well with.
And finally, the Microsoft Office 2007 (online) final will most likely be fulfilling all of the assignments and tests.
Aside from all of that junk, I've been trying to chill as much as I can here and there, as I can't study hard these days due to fatigue. I've had a headache every day of the week for a month, and I'm sleeping no more than 3-4 hours these days. I can't think anymore.. I've needed to just watch some tv and relax.
In other news, I'm going to try and create some songs when I can. I have had writer/musician's block, and thus haven't been able to come up with much, but I expect that to pass on soon. I have also been dabbling in short film making, playing around with Windows Movie Maker, and even made a music video for one of my originals.
Any recent music can be located at Gage Taylor Official and recent videos at TheGageTaylor
Love and Peace,
Through Burning Eyes
Thankfully, the final for my music theory should be fairly easy - and fun. The grading will be based on hard work and creative effort. We'll be taking an mp3, running it through the notation software Sibelius and arranging strings and/or whatever else we so choose (horns, brass, etc etc).
For the ProTools final, I've chosen to do the FMOD capstone project. FMOD is a program which cues themes in videogames, so I'll compose an orchestrated tune on ProTools, run the music on FMOD, and hopefully it will work in some form or another.
For the Audio Production final, it's probably something along the lines of a test, which I've actually been quite well with.
And finally, the Microsoft Office 2007 (online) final will most likely be fulfilling all of the assignments and tests.
Aside from all of that junk, I've been trying to chill as much as I can here and there, as I can't study hard these days due to fatigue. I've had a headache every day of the week for a month, and I'm sleeping no more than 3-4 hours these days. I can't think anymore.. I've needed to just watch some tv and relax.
In other news, I'm going to try and create some songs when I can. I have had writer/musician's block, and thus haven't been able to come up with much, but I expect that to pass on soon. I have also been dabbling in short film making, playing around with Windows Movie Maker, and even made a music video for one of my originals.
Any recent music can be located at Gage Taylor Official and recent videos at TheGageTaylor
Love and Peace,
Through Burning Eyes
Friday, February 18, 2011
"No Offense!"
We've all said it at least once in our life (probably). It's not a new thing to say, though it has gotten to be a popular phrase, if not an all too overused phrase. That 2 word thing one says when one does not "mean" to offend someone, yet says something that could be perceived to be offensive nonetheless. "No offense", we say, in hopes of not "offending" the person we are saying "no offense" to.
*ALARM BUZZ* WRONG!
The term "no offense" has got to be one of the most overused and misused catchphrases of the century. After all, why say you mean no offense when you technically DO mean to offend someone, but just at a lesser degree than you hope. "You're ugly - no offense". "No offense, but that was the worst thing I've ever seen". "No offense meant, but you're just not my type". "You're boring - no offense". "No offense, but this show sucks". "No offense, but you really suck at this". "No offense, but your hair is just.. ew". "You're not fit for this kind of stuff - no offense".
I've heard it way too many times in my life. It's been directed towards myself, it's been directed towards others, people I know, people I don't know, offline and/or offline the catchphrase "no offense" can be seen everywhere.
It's....... repulsive, disgusting, and hideously rude!
If you think someone is ugly, you shouldn't say "no offense". Just flat out say it or don't say it at all! If you tell someone they are ugly, you've already told them that, and the damage has already been done. Saying "no offense" will not redeem yourself, nor will it change the opinion of the person receiving the comment. If you think someone is horrible at something, don't tell them "you suck", and then "no offense" in the same sentence, or even conversation for that matter. You should either keep your thoughts & opinions to yourself, or just be genuinely honest and keep it at that, without using the phrase "no offense".
I'm a caucasian guy. If I tell a colored person their color is repulsive, but "no offense meant", should I expect them to say "no offense taken"? NO! I will expect a fist in my face and a resounding "RACIST!" as response to my "non-offensive" comment.
Why would that make a difference? I'm not racist after all, I just happened to think the colored person's color was ugly in that scenario. It doesn't fricking matter if I'm not racist, because if I said something rude or uncalled for, then I've already done damage and offended the person, whether or not that was my pure intention. My opinion does not matter, what matters is how the person received my comment, and how they perceive it.
I may as well be flat-out honest in acknowledging that I more than likely am offending the person, or keep my comments to myself and let things be. It's a lot more sophisticated to say "I personally think your shirt is tacky, and others might say the same - but if you like it then who am I to tell you not to wear it?".
If you say to someone "this food sucks, no offense", then do you expect them to feel hurt or expect them to feel that this one meal in particular is bad but their other meals are good? Instead of saying no offense, be more creative and say "this meal is horrible in my opinion, but your other meals are great", then that lets the person know they failed this time, but that doesn't mean they're a horrible cook.
With that said, I hope we've all learned a valuable lesson - I sure have in hearing this catch phrase used WAY too many times.
*ALARM BUZZ* WRONG!
The term "no offense" has got to be one of the most overused and misused catchphrases of the century. After all, why say you mean no offense when you technically DO mean to offend someone, but just at a lesser degree than you hope. "You're ugly - no offense". "No offense, but that was the worst thing I've ever seen". "No offense meant, but you're just not my type". "You're boring - no offense". "No offense, but this show sucks". "No offense, but you really suck at this". "No offense, but your hair is just.. ew". "You're not fit for this kind of stuff - no offense".
I've heard it way too many times in my life. It's been directed towards myself, it's been directed towards others, people I know, people I don't know, offline and/or offline the catchphrase "no offense" can be seen everywhere.
It's....... repulsive, disgusting, and hideously rude!
If you think someone is ugly, you shouldn't say "no offense". Just flat out say it or don't say it at all! If you tell someone they are ugly, you've already told them that, and the damage has already been done. Saying "no offense" will not redeem yourself, nor will it change the opinion of the person receiving the comment. If you think someone is horrible at something, don't tell them "you suck", and then "no offense" in the same sentence, or even conversation for that matter. You should either keep your thoughts & opinions to yourself, or just be genuinely honest and keep it at that, without using the phrase "no offense".
I'm a caucasian guy. If I tell a colored person their color is repulsive, but "no offense meant", should I expect them to say "no offense taken"? NO! I will expect a fist in my face and a resounding "RACIST!" as response to my "non-offensive" comment.
Why would that make a difference? I'm not racist after all, I just happened to think the colored person's color was ugly in that scenario. It doesn't fricking matter if I'm not racist, because if I said something rude or uncalled for, then I've already done damage and offended the person, whether or not that was my pure intention. My opinion does not matter, what matters is how the person received my comment, and how they perceive it.
I may as well be flat-out honest in acknowledging that I more than likely am offending the person, or keep my comments to myself and let things be. It's a lot more sophisticated to say "I personally think your shirt is tacky, and others might say the same - but if you like it then who am I to tell you not to wear it?".
If you say to someone "this food sucks, no offense", then do you expect them to feel hurt or expect them to feel that this one meal in particular is bad but their other meals are good? Instead of saying no offense, be more creative and say "this meal is horrible in my opinion, but your other meals are great", then that lets the person know they failed this time, but that doesn't mean they're a horrible cook.
With that said, I hope we've all learned a valuable lesson - I sure have in hearing this catch phrase used WAY too many times.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Alaska: The Runaway
As I was listening to the "Into the Wild" soundtrack by Eddie Vedder, I got to thinkin'.. sometimes I wish I had the guts to put everything on hold and run away to Alaska.. not without cash or food, but just a journey to find myself, alone.
It's not that I want to throw my whole life away as though it is meaningless, which is what Christopher McCandless did in essence when he ran off to Alaska, burning his money and ridding himself of every opportunity to climb back into society.
No, what I want to do is put my life, which is full of worth, on hold. I want to put everything on the back-burner, if you will. I love where I'm headed. I'm happy with where things could potentially lead to.. but the journey there, it's strenuous.
Since I've become a college student, I've had no "me" time. I have not been able to get a job, and thus have no cash to waste away on stupid little things that make one happy and carefree, such as going to a movie with some friends every week or going out for a beer (well, I'm not 21 yet but that day will come soon).
In other words, I'm stressed beyond my limits. I have lots of patience, but my patience is shrinking thinner and thinner. I need a break, one that involves something new, but doesn't require me being graded or financially backed up by the government. Something that involves me going to a far away place just to do it.. to conquer something, and to return home and say "I've done it.." proudly.
I've done many things, but I haven't truly been that great at anything. I've always been told I was talented or creative, yet often times come in last place when it comes to those sorts of things. I'm sick of loneliness. I'm sick of boredom and artificial fun. I'm sick of living in today's selfish society. I'm sick of being lovesick. I'm sick of myself.
I might just be kidding myself, and the chances of me actually setting out to do something crazy like this are lower than the deepest chamber of Hell, but sometimes I get to thinking: what if? What if I could run off to Alaska, and return? Could I do it? Would I? Is that something I'd do, and do well? To leave society be for several months and explore creation on my own, to meditate on my God in a lonely solitude within the northern parts, yet not a bad lonely?
Hmmm.. maybe. Perhaps someday I'll get to this one.
It's not that I want to throw my whole life away as though it is meaningless, which is what Christopher McCandless did in essence when he ran off to Alaska, burning his money and ridding himself of every opportunity to climb back into society.
No, what I want to do is put my life, which is full of worth, on hold. I want to put everything on the back-burner, if you will. I love where I'm headed. I'm happy with where things could potentially lead to.. but the journey there, it's strenuous.
Since I've become a college student, I've had no "me" time. I have not been able to get a job, and thus have no cash to waste away on stupid little things that make one happy and carefree, such as going to a movie with some friends every week or going out for a beer (well, I'm not 21 yet but that day will come soon).
In other words, I'm stressed beyond my limits. I have lots of patience, but my patience is shrinking thinner and thinner. I need a break, one that involves something new, but doesn't require me being graded or financially backed up by the government. Something that involves me going to a far away place just to do it.. to conquer something, and to return home and say "I've done it.." proudly.
I've done many things, but I haven't truly been that great at anything. I've always been told I was talented or creative, yet often times come in last place when it comes to those sorts of things. I'm sick of loneliness. I'm sick of boredom and artificial fun. I'm sick of living in today's selfish society. I'm sick of being lovesick. I'm sick of myself.
I might just be kidding myself, and the chances of me actually setting out to do something crazy like this are lower than the deepest chamber of Hell, but sometimes I get to thinking: what if? What if I could run off to Alaska, and return? Could I do it? Would I? Is that something I'd do, and do well? To leave society be for several months and explore creation on my own, to meditate on my God in a lonely solitude within the northern parts, yet not a bad lonely?
Hmmm.. maybe. Perhaps someday I'll get to this one.
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